My story : The parents.

Being young does not excuse being careless or unconscious. Although it is a fact that, as we are young we have less knowledge and less experience in many areas and subjects in our lives; it is still an opportunity to slow down and act with reason not impulses. I am now well aware of that myself and I held myself accountable for anything I did whether good or wrong.

And she sure did hold me accountable for a lot of things, especially for things I did not do. And for so many years, at such a young age. I never quite understood why. I doubted about what could be the reasons why she always blamed me, always had an explosive temper, how she could make herself the victim when she was not, or where she was the perpetrator, initiator, and creator of the problem, itself. Until a couple of years back, I was around 13, 14, 15 years old. Those were the worst years of my life. But all my life has been a shit show, quite frankly, it is only my optimistic self that always looked for the brighter side of things to continue to dream. God knows I am a big dreamer. I keep optimism by my side.

She has made my life, a shit show, a living hell.

But recently, It rang a bell. I went to a whole other level of consciousness and enlightenment.

I needed to speak up. I was not, have never been much of a talker and it has played me so badly in so many ways and again, I had to realize it is because of my upbringing. Not being heard, taken care of, not feeling seen by the ones who should have done all of those things.

They successfully failed at the only job they had in regard to me. Any of us, their children.

The bell that rang was that she is, they both are PERVERT NARCISSISTS. The female caregiver is either a covert or overt pervert narcissist. It depends on the days and people, to be honest. She plays both sides. One day she is super humble but still manages to bitch about everyone behind their backs. And most cases, she is this overt at times, malignant pervert narcissist who jubilates, enjoys watching and knows some people are suffering because of her. She has in front of me, done wrong to people that supposedly did her wrong when it was only to defend themselves. But then, she will never tell the part where she is at fault only the part that makes her look like the victim. She only and solely sees the reactions to her actions but never her actual actions that lead to those people reacting and doing what she would then use against them as the reason why she has been mad or exploding.

This is the mother. The father, where to start? He is by the book, the ultimate overt pervert narcissist. He is so great, knows everything, and can do anything, nobody is greater than him, more talented than him, etc. They are similar in that way. They do act like this the same way. Worst case, they did this to us, special mention for playing favourites between us. So, it was at times, that some of us were great and capable, some others were not and will never do anything in their lives. This was them, this is them and who they are proud of.